One year ago today my mother passed away….I will not tell you that she was perfect…at times she drove me crazy. But she was my mom…and the reason she drove me crazy? Because all I really wanted is to have her approval…to feel she was proud of me.
The mother daughter bond is a strange and wonderful thing…I remember when my first of four daughters was born ….I cried. My husband looked at me strange and I said..”.you don’t understand, at some point in her life she is going to hate me…all daughters do.” Being a son he just didn’t get it.
All we want in life is to be best friends with our daughters and yet they just roll their eyes….I know I did.
Now, I marvel at a woman that was able to live life with such grace. A woman that didn’t always have an easy life and yet knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that her Lord was in control of it all.
This is a picture of mom and my hands….now I wear her ring on my other hand…I can’t tell you how many times I look at that ring. That ring reminds me of the hands that held me as a baby…wiped away my tears…made my homecoming dress….and held my babies. The hands that gave to the needy…prayed for a stranger…and held her Bible close to her heart.
On mom’s tombstone we had engraved her life motto….”Only one life will soon be passed..only what’s done for Christ will last” I guess all along she was trying to tell me that it was not her approval I should be seeking …
I love you mom..and miss you so much.
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((Dianne))… Your comments were so true, and so touching. Thank you for sharing them. I think everyone who has lost their mom feels the same way. I remember when I was a teenager, I worked with a 70 year old who’s mother, at age 93 passed away. I commented how it should be expected…. he responded, “no matter what your age, you still want your mom around, if for no other reason than to talk about a problem you have.” He was so right.
I miss my Mom too…. One day I know I will see her again, it’s just going to be a long time before that happens…
What a precious picture, I hope you have it framed somewhere.
Oh the role of mothers.
My own was not so good. I pray I have been an acceptable one to my daughter (and son) and now my daughter has three daughters so the journey continues and the baton is passed to another generation. My mother is still alive with parkinsons and memory issues. I see her now as a little old lady who needs compassion not the bad mom who was ‘non caring’ for her girls. God has a way of ‘changing’ our hearts, isn’t that wonderful?
Your mom sounds like a wonderful woman. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful post.
my mon died today in 2005 and i still cry and miss her and yes she drove me crazy because she expected me to be her driver her sons had to work so i drove her after i got off of work