One year ago today my mother passed away….I will not tell you that she was perfect…at times she drove me crazy. But she was my mom…and the reason she drove me crazy? Because all I really wanted is to have her approval…to feel she was proud of me.
The mother daughter bond is a strange and wonderful thing…I remember when my first of four daughters was born ….I cried. My husband looked at me strange and I said..”.you don’t understand, at some point in her life she is going to hate me…all daughters do.” Being a son he just didn’t get it.
All we want in life is to be best friends with our daughters and yet they just roll their eyes….I know I did.
Now, I marvel at a woman that was able to live life with such grace. A woman that didn’t always have an easy life and yet knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that her Lord was in control of it all.
This is a picture of mom and my hands….now I wear her ring on my other hand…I can’t tell you how many times I look at that ring. That ring reminds me of the hands that held me as a baby…wiped away my tears…made my homecoming dress….and held my babies. The hands that gave to the needy…prayed for a stranger…and held her Bible close to her heart.
On mom’s tombstone we had engraved her life motto….”Only one life will soon be passed..only what’s done for Christ will last” I guess all along she was trying to tell me that it was not her approval I should be seeking …
I love you mom..and miss you so much.